they told me it would be terrible

Experiencing the terrible twos as a single mom

They said it would be terrible but they didn't say how magical it would be. Everyone told me the 2's would be terrible. And let me tell you it can be fucking miserable some days but most days and moments are so magical and beautiful. Watching my son's little mind just grow every single day. His sassiness and stubbornness is what I can only imagine my mom dealt with when raising me. But for some reason that's not what she remembers. That little bundle of joy has turned into a tornado that is so smart and vibrant that I don't even know how to put into words the feelings I have for him.

His world has been flipped upside down and yet he keeps me whole. This beautiful, terrible toddler is what makes my world go round. Just when I think I can't go on or I can't do this mom thing he looks at me and smiles and says "hi mommy" I realize my purpose in his world. He makes me smile, cry, cuss, drink and eat too many "nacks" but that is ok because I know I am his world. He is just trying to make sense of everything. His lack of fear and his determination to do everything himself has taught me patience.

These days I am celebrating the quality time I spend with him. Ensuring I raise him to be kind, determined, patient and loving. I thank god daily for blessing me with the most precious little boy who I know will continue to give me a run for my money every single day.

As we reflect on 2020 and all of the challenges we face I know that it might have been terrible but let's be honest our little ones are magical! They are resilient and in the face of uncertainty they have exceeded our expectations.